Yeppers!!

It's amazing what happens when you let go and Let the big man take over..

2005-07-18T21:41:00.000-05:00

Okay, so God like totally rocks my shoes off!!
He is just so cool! I love him so much!
About a month ago, i went to an amusement park with one of my friends. Sure you say what is the big deal. but Ever since returning home from Canada, things have been awkward, and well, just not real good. Which has been frustrating, and disappointing. But i felt like I was suppose to ask her to come, cuz i got 2 free tickets through work. but everyone i asked couldn't come. yea God sets things up even when you don't think so.. so we went. we are both dreading the outcome, cuz ya know these things are suppose to be fun. but we hadn't really talked for like ever. but God was there the whole time..we laughed, we cried, we hugged. It was really good. God is so cool. I ended up going to her wedding at the beginning of July. Which was something that i had said that i wouldn't attend..but God changed my heart for the situation.

So not only did he restore that relationship, he helped restore some more with some of my other friends. Just by us getting together and being honest with each other. Now we are taking each day as it comes..and God totally blesses that..

My room finally is done enough for me to move in..there are still some minor things that need to to accomplished, but it totally rocks..and i can't make up my mind on what i want to do. but it's just cool to have a bed to sleep on, instead of the couch. Praise Jesus!

My sister's baby is growing, so fast. It's insane.

I have had to kill my pride alot. I have just started taking time out to hear His voice. though I am still distracted with things. I am doing okay. and i am learning about being humble. which is harder than i thought it would be. but ya know.

And I have fallen in love. His name is David, he is 11 years older than I, and has 2 children, Rachl and Korbin, from previous marriage. He plays the bass, and guitar, is in the worship band with me. I like him a lot. It's funny, cuz i look at him and we are exact opposites. And not at all the man i would have pictured myself with. It's not perfect. There is still some growing up we both have to do. Sometimes i fight that with all of me. We have a lot of talks. Sometimes it's just me talking. But i don't know. every day i wake up and pray, for him and me. we are just taking it one day at a time. It all just kind of took us both by surprise. but so far it's okay.

I think that is all i needto put for now. It's pretty long.
Have a great day!

2005-05-29T13:44:00.000-05:00

ohmygosh!! this last week has been crazy!!
My sister had her baby at 1:51 pm on Monday afternoon!! He was 5 lbs 15 oz..19 and half inches long!!
they came home on wednesday! it's been interesting..but oh so cool..it just cool to see this life that has been growing in my sister's belly for almost 9 months and now he is here..he is so cute..i love him so much!! it really makes me want to have kids even more..however i am waiting..

I signed up for Classes out at our local college..i'm kind of excited!!
God has really been doing some cool stuff..
for example..i have not had a heart to stay here.. in fact i have been looking for an escape route since i came home from Toronto! but the other day i was talking to my friend nathan..telling him about the college and stuff..as i am talking to him, God is like totally talking to me..I was talking about how i have such hopes and dreams for my future that i want to get it started now and my heart has been in Toronto..cuz it's where want to be! but God is like but if you keep looking at all that stuff you will miss out on what i have for you here right now..and i never thought about that before..than a few days later i was talking to one of my friends..who in high school we were pretty close, but over the years not so close..i would easily become frustrated with you and just usually walk around from her..i know i was a great friend..
but a while back, we were talking and all hanging out in the coffee shop at church..she was talking..i was getting frustrated and turned to leave..then it was like i couldn't..like i had to stay..then i said something and she started to cry..and i just went and hugged her..and she cried and i hugged..it was totally god..cuz before i wouldn't have been that way..but i dont' know...it was cool!!

what else..I think i sort of started dating someone..it was weird..and it continues to be a wierd situation..as i am not quite sure what God wants..however i think my heart has fallen for him..which makes it really wierd and probably not what is suppose to happen..but my heart is having conflicts..or my mind is not agreeing..or i am just looking at what i want rather than what the big man wants..

Last night, saturday...we had our big youth thing..we recently bought the church behind us..and we had been fixing up the chapel for our youth room..it like rocks..so last night we had a band from close by and just rocked out mostly..and there were like 60 kids there..and it was so cool!!

Now today, we are having out annual fish fry..where we eat lots, play softball, and then take naps..only to get up and some of us are watching napolean dynamite..(okay i know it's spelled wrong)but that should be fun..

anyway, i think i am done..
oh yea..i am coming to canada this weekend..but it's going to be a heck of a trip..but it will be worth it..maybe heading to Toronto sunday..if possible to say a quick hello to sarah and lee..so yea..that should be fun!!

anyway, i'm getting off of here..once i figure out how to put pictures on here..i will have one of Brynnen!! yahoo!!

Brynnen Ray Nethery Is on His Way!!!

2005-05-23T09:43:00.000-05:00

So this morning about 3:30 am, my mom rushes home from work..to find my sister in labor pains..she has been since about 9:30 last night..but they just got close..so he is not here yet..but he is coming..it is now about 9:30 am..12 hours..i am so excited..i can't wait to see what he looks like..

I am also nervous..this morning she was crying..i think the pain was more than she expected..but i guess it would be..now she is haveing contractions and i wish that i could just take the pain from her..I prayed to God not to let it hurt so much....

anyway, i should probably go..i need to get some stuff and then head back in..but i just took a quick break to write this..

The most perfect Date!!

2005-04-28T15:25:00.000-05:00

Okay, so really it wasn't a date, but if it was, It would have been awesome!!

So Tuesday, I awoke just in time to leave for work..A few hours later, I arrive home, and begin to get ready for my night out!!

It's like God pushed the pause button on my normal life, and said, hey lets put some spice in it..okay for some of you..this may not seem exciting..but I am like a little kid, when it comes to new things..and bands that i love..so just picture a little kid getting the present that she had been wishing for all year!! You'll understand it more!!

So i did my hair..it came out perfect..I recently got it layered, and i was afraid i would have to spend more time on it than i had time for..but God rocks..cuz it was great..I put on my Ghostbuster shirt, and walked out the door!! of course i had on pants too...

Sparing you most of the details..We drove to evanville, In, about 2 hours away...where we went to the mall..Entering the Build-A-Bear store(for those of you who don't know..you start with the skin of a stuffed animal, you fluff it..put a heart in it, brush it, pick out an outfit for it!!) it was so cool!! I loved it..when i recieve pictures..i'll show them to you all!! HIs name is Zeke, the Pickle man, he's a monkey, cuz i love monkeys!!

After this, we went to a japanese restaurant..where, they cook in front of you!! It was so amazing..i got an onion thrown on me!! I laughed so hard, and the fire part was really cool!!

Leaving the restaurant, we head for this church, where my utmost favorite band is playing!! SUPERCHIC[K]!!

They totally rocked the night..and Josh Mcdowell did as well!! hee hee!! But man..then i got to talk to them afterward..and i get so nervous..but it was totally cool!! we then preceded to head home..

That is my evening in a nutshell...leaving out most of the details..for fear of boredom!! but i loved it!!

my grandma is snoring in the background..

2005-04-25T15:49:00.000-05:00

My mind just went blank..how can you write a blog on a blank mind? it's rather impossible..so i am going to ramble until something enters my head!!

Recent events..my life as taken a sudden boring turn..I have working about 8 to 9 hours a day, than either coming home and being lazy or going to the church where it seems like I am involved in everything, yet nothing at all....
Oh dude, we recently added ducks to our family..It' so cool..they don't like being held, but i love to try and get them..i like to pester than more than anything!! hee hee.but my dad is like you need to try and feed them!! so i did..and i was like scared at first..I don't know why..I guess i am always scared of new things..or things I don't really know a lot about..It rocked!! they like tickled my hand..it was so amazing..the experiance can not be told..it must be experianced..hee hee!!

At work the other day, I downed a whole thing of spicey buffalo sauce!! it all started when I ate a ketchup packet..thank you sarah!! it was the most disgusting thing i have had..i came so close to puking..yet it was rather fun!! hee hee....anyway..

Oh yea!! I have recently read sarah's blog!! I am rather jeolous, cuz i am not even sure that anyone reads my blog!! but in a way i don't really take the time like she does to make things interesting..so really i don't blame anyone!!

my little sister is about 8 and a half months pregnant..and she is so cute!! her belly is so big and her belly button is close to being an outtie!! it is so great!! I can't wait for my little nephew, Brynnon Ray, to arrive..of course..I would like him to make the full term...so i guess i can wait!!

one final note!! I recently bought a few outfits..skirts, skorts, and girly clothes..I don't do that sort of thing..but something hit me whenever I went into this store..and i was suckered in..but they are cute..i just decided that I wanted to look like a girl..instead of my normal jeans and shirts..

Sometimes life isn't so easy..Than there are moments..that make it worth it!

2005-04-08T14:25:00.000-05:00

There once was a girl, who worked all day long. She liked her job, as much as she could. For it twas not her dream, however good enough for now! One day while at work, she was asking some questions to the person she was talking too. Beside him was an old lady. Who decided that the girl was not doing a good job. So she not so sweetly states her opinion. Than begins to give the girl some lovely looks, as well as complain to fellow employees. Which only brings the girl to tears! Tears are pouring down her face, and now she has to take more orders. Which only makes her cry more, cuz of embarrassment, and many other things. Later she rushes home to her mom. Where she cries on her mommy's shouldar, and recieves great love. Not sure if she can face the rest of the day, but knowing she must. She returns to work.

Now hours later, she is doing good. A little tired. Ready to go for a walk soon..They always seem to help. being close to nature. Who knows maybe she will find the bears cottage and eat all their porriage!

On a brighter note!!

Yesterday, I was able to dress up as The Hamburgalar!! Ya know the guy that is in the strips, wears like a zorro hat, and steals all the burgers!! He kind of looked like chucky to me!

My boss, Alice, told me to choose the big bag or little one..so I choose the big one..she unzips the bag..and out pops this purple thing..Yep it was Grimace! Well if any one really knows me..the whole costume things like that..well scare me.I ran out of the room, close to crying..than i tried to go back in later, i almost vomited, as i could still see it..it wasn't my finest moment..but yea know.. dressing up like that was fun!! the kids were so cool! they would hug me and kiss my mask..it was great..then i got to stand by the road, and wave at people.. some of them honked, some looked confused! but it sure made my night...when i took the mask off..it was gross, cuz i was so hot..yea, i just let you imagine..but it was worth it!!

Than my parents got Ducks, 4 of them..I think they are awesome!! I put in the bath tub the first day..with some water..they were so cute! I love them!! I have named 2 of them, than i change them..cuz i don't like them after i name them..(max, pedro, sinai,) so yea..it's fun!!

so I may be a little obsessed!! What's wrong with that? I don't think there is anthing wrong with it..yea..that's right..don't read my blog if you do!

2005-04-02T00:10:00.000-06:00

Dang it..I had so much more to say on my title..but they cut me off!! what's up with that..only allowing you like five words..Okay geez, i know it's more than five..I can count!! right..I'm going to stop now..

today we celebrated the life! sort of..more of a belated/birthday thing for me and a friend, Lisa! Have you ever realized though that even your best planned plans..never really go as you want then too..yea that was today..bonfires, marshmellow, and hot dogs..that was all i wanted..mainly the fire, though..cuz they are mezmerizing..I like them..hee hee..I like them a lot..

but it was raining..Sad moments on one's life..So we took our little adventure to one others house..where we preceeded to roast marshmellows in their fireplace..which was rather cool.but you had to be really careful..they allowed me to watch a movie..since it was a celebration of myself..

Napoleon Dynamite!! will some one please tell me how to spell it..It was so hilarious..I was laughing a lot..and like there were people who hadn't seen it..and sometimes they would laugh..but for the most part..they just didn't understand..but I loved it..I took a quiz..and it was fun..I ended up being tator tot..If you want to be cool, like me..You can take it too..One day I hope to as cool..as Napoleon..

Can you name the seven dwarfs?

2005-03-30T14:10:00.000-06:00

Went back to work today!!
It was crazy, due to the fact that I was completely tired..My brain was still at home, in bed..I was spacing..and on top of it we had this guy there that was suppose to be helpful..but he tells us everything that we are doing wrong!! So we were all stressed..I think I was just to out of it to care, but people were driving me crazy..but It's work!!

It's like 70 degrees here!! it is so beautiful..so after this I am going to go out and enjoy it..My dog is sitting at the door, staring in..I think he's waiting..

4 hours of sleep, and 12 hours of driving. Results in chaos!! So here is my chaos!!

2005-03-29T16:06:00.000-06:00

You see it all began when I realized I had to go to the bathroom!! (Sarah I love you) Okay So on March 18, (my delightful birthday) I started to embarke on a journey of self discovery! Okay well, actually it was more of a trip to Toronto...but they go hand in hand!!
I stopped at crystals..it was so fun to see her!! She is so great..I had a lot of fun..we went to Fridays-and it was like their birthday-so my birthday is the same as tgifridays-how cool is that? So I got this cool hat..that I think i am going to wear like everyday!!

grr..I am so addicted to Gilmore Girls!! It's so hard to focus and watch this show..I have something great to say and then..termites happen on the show..and geez, I'm gone! How are they going to survive!! I must watch..It's so wrong..How can you be so into a t.v. show?? but then again, Lee is pretty addicted to Napoleon Dynamite!! Hey cool your jets..I wasn't dissing it..though I must admit the first time I watched it..I hated it..I fell asleep..I know it's a crime~while i'm at it, I haven't watched any of the stars wars movies either~which I will rent at the first chance and watch..only cuz I almost got attacked when I told Lee, sarah, and tim..Anyway, back to N. Dynamite..I watched it again, during my visit to Toronto..I will be forever in Lee's debt..cuz i would have been missing out..the second time around I laughed all the time..it was great..I learned a lot of the quotes..I have already worn out my welcome back at home!! hee hee!! It's fun!!

Well, now that I have already written a whole lot..I had so much fun this past week!! God like totally rocks my world..cuz i had money for like the whole thing and even some after..Which it was all a God thing!! I love this God..I think I totally fell in love with Him all over again!! He just showed himself in a new way! freshwind rocked!! But it always, well it was only my second one, but both of them have rocked!!

Sunday, like 2 days ago...after church*which sarah and I skipped out of!* she looked too cute sleeping there, she was so tired!! We, Lee, Tim,Sarah, Steven, Thomas, and like 2 other guys I don't even know if I got thier names, but we all went to kelseys..and it was fun..the whole reason I bring it up, is because Sarah and I ordered these like tiriasmoothies or something, me being the innocent girl that I am..don't think about what is in it..but when I recieve the drink, I taste it..It's reeaaly good..then I notice a slight taste..yes that is right!! there was alcohol in it! hee hee...yea, i didn't even realize..but it was really good!

The best part was seeing everyone again..people from the school, SARAH, Lee, the hollema boys, Tim, Beck, Crystal!! I love each of you so much!! I miss you guys so much when I am not around you!! I thought I had the whole thing solved by deciding that I just needed to marry a canaidian-then I realized Sarah and Lee are moving to Wales..HOw can you compete with that? Just have to marry an english guy, i guess!! yea that's right..who said anything about love!! I need to be by SArah!! geez..

Okay so now that I have written like half of my novel!! I will be signing off!!

A little request!!

2005-03-11T19:31:00.000-06:00

Has some of you may know..I am planning a trip to Toronto..

I just need you all to pray..that if this is what My Daddy wants me to do that things will work out..

Cuz my car is on the fritz, and money is really tight..and I am not sure if I will be able to go..

I want to go..I miss you all so much...If i could have been..I'd be there now!! instead of writing this email!!

Pray that I will stop stressing over this, that I will give it to Jesus. Trust Him, even if it means not going..which I even hate writing that..but Just that He will provide..

I love you all!!
Dawna

Ha Ha!!

2005-02-20T12:05:00.000-06:00

So I finally did it!!
I had been talking about dying my hair black, for some time..or just the tips..

Well, last night..my mom dyed my hair black..it's a really pretty black..and the more i see it the more i like it..but it's a huge change!

but it come out in like 28 shampoo's so it will be okay!!

ya know, it's always the little things!!

2005-02-16T16:24:00.000-06:00

Okay, for the past hour, I have been checking email, and trying to figure out how to burn only a certain amount of songs on a cd..

don't laugh.. I am being serious! I almost gave up..but found a different program..

Then the cd popped out..and I'm like crap it didn't work..

but I am now listening to it..and it worked beautifully so far!!

do you know how happy that makes me!! I want to jump up and down..
well hang on..

Yahoo!!

The goodness of A Father!

2005-02-16T16:14:00.000-06:00

God has totally rocked my socks off this week!!

A few weeks ago, we had this worship conference..it was really good..but after one of the sessions..My spiritual mom, pulls me over to the side and starts talking to me..before i knew it..now only was she reading my mail, but i was spilling out all these feeling that have had kept inside for so long.. tears were pouring out of everywhere. It wasn't my finest moments.

But ever since then..It's like I have opened up to this God I found in Toronto..for some reason I just left Him there. I got scared, not trusting really anyone..It wasn't fun..but It's starting to change!! I feel like I have told myself this so many times..but this time, it's like my heart knows it..it's not just something I am saying to convince myself..

I got to lead worship..which was awesome..I haven't felt God like that in a long time..It was so beautiful. The best part was I think i just let God take over..Let Him be in control..it totally rocked!!

The Holy Spirit is moving, not only through me but through people in my church!! There is this new freedom coming..It only happened after I stopped trying to control things..

Life is good.. I got a guitar!! I know the rest is coming..I just have to be patient..Let the big Man lead, and not me!!

Holy Piss!!!

2005-02-11T22:37:00.000-06:00

holy piss..i can't believe it..

God is like so totally awesome!! I love him so much!!
it is about 10:30 at night..and for some random reason I came by the church on my way home..
in the sanctuary, there was this box that said: for dawna mullins...
I knew what it was...my heart jumped..
and yes it was a brand new guitar..with pick up..a built in tuner and it was so beautiful...

God is so cool..I was like "ohmygod" "ohmygod" Drew kept laughing at me..hee hee....

I love God!!

Anyway I just had to share that news with anyone who still reads this thing..

I don't believe it!

2005-02-10T21:35:00.000-06:00

I led worship tonight!! along side chrissy, and hiedi..it's crazy..

It rocked though..not because i did, but just because God was there..

It was my first time, I guess after tonight we will see if they want me to do it again!!

catching up..

2005-01-28T19:33:00.000-06:00

Okay so the weather here has sucked..
Snow, Rain, Ice, more snow, rain, ice..yea it hasn't been fun...but you learn to deal!
It's rained so much that the river close by has overflowed, actually anything holding water has overflowed..flooding everything near it..like 3 towns are not liveable..which really sucks..

Anyway, 4pfjajfeoiruoiwpjapuelkfpoauerpufl.p;awjdfoerjawpijwe;rmfujeioa'pfkjlk.....
sorry speaking in tounges, trying to write it doesn't work...hee hee..
Life has been pretty good...I no longer babysit which has made money tight, but I have also been able to spend a lot of time with God and just re-discover who He is, and who I am in Him..It's been really cool...I love this God so much!!

I sent my application in for SoW....I almost feel that it is almost a no go...that there is something else that God is going to have me doing, but I just sent it in anyway..

Last thursday, they left me in charge of the youth..which I am not sure was a good idea..but I love doing that stuff..just hanging out with them and talking..it was pretty good...
On sunday, I was partially in charge of the big service...it was really cool..I couldn't believe that they trusted me enough to do such a thing...cuz I act like a kid most of the time..but it was really cool!! Than I was asked last night if I wanted to lead worship on thursday sometime...it was really cool!!

My little sister is going to have boy!! She was going to name it Carter wayne..don't laugh, everyone I have told that has laughed...But then she has changed it to Brennon Ray..which i really like better..but is rather close to someone else you recently had a baby, and named it Brendon Ray...but it's all good!!

Kind of a sad theme today..

2005-01-10T14:11:00.000-06:00

Hello folks!

Friday night we all went to my friend, Audreys house! It was really cool, cuz we worshipped for forever, then prayed and prophesied! IT was so much fun.

then i ended up going home at about 1 am, it had been sleeting/snowing for a few hours. When i hit the road that leads me almost to my house. I some how ended up doing a 180 and landed backwards in a ditch. Now no it's not as bad as sarah's or tim's. but it still kind of scared me. on the opposite side of the road, there were two telephone poles. It must have been God's hand cuz otherwise, i probably would have connected to those poles.
My friend Liz, drove by right after. She ended up going home and getting her brother, Josh, and our friend Jon. Some nieghbors came, and than my parents came. It was quite the event!!

I had to wake up this old couple. The man came out in a t-shirt and underwear..just what i wanted to see...but yea..

Then i have been sick all weekend. Not really fun.

We found out the other day, that my cousin's girlfriend lost her baby. So today was the visitation and funeral. I walked up to looked at this baby. It was so little. It looked fake. It was only 21 weeks old. A week older than my little sisters baby. It was just weird. Not real. He was cute. I felt bad, cuz the whole time i kept thinking, thank you God that it's not my sisters. and just praying that God would protect it. Is that wrong? i don't know. It was just sad.

I love you guys!

Sometimes I hear voices.

2005-01-04T15:05:00.000-06:00

Okay so is anyone else big, fat and hairy from these past weeks...well maybe not hairy..
I don't think i have ever ate so much in my life..geez, now i have to go on a diet for like two days, cuz i won't be able to handle not eating what i want to eat, for more then that. so really I won't be going on a diet!! just eat more food, and hope for the best!!

Wow, what in the world has been going on with me? good question...

like 3 days before christmas, a bunch of us went sledding, now I don't know about you, but i don' like snow..maybe it is because i had a terrible accident while snow was on the ground, those darn expectanices, or what. but i don't venture out in the snow, nor play in it or anything like. I hope to one day overcome this fear and learn how to snowboard, ski, that sort of thing, but for now, I stay indoors. So we went. We walked forever, there was 7 of us and one little sleigh. So most of us spent our time by the fire. I did slid down once, let me tell you that was enough for me. If we didn't stop ourselves, the we ramped off the side of the hill, into the creek that was down below. The idea sounds fun, but really it just scared me. So long before i had too, i rolled off the sled!! then I was messing around on another hill, and dude, i couldn't not get up the hill for the life of me! I would take two steps, then fall back to where i was before.. My friend Drew tells me that i need to be a bear!! so I start growling, resulting in me laughing, as well as people at the top of the hill.. It was rather interesting.

Christmas was good..things with my family are kind of out of sorts, but what can you do?
I got to talk to my two bestest friends, Sarah and Chrystal!! who I adore!! It just really made me miss them even more!

I think thursday Tim called me!! Who I love so much! It was so cool to hear his voice and just talk to him! WE also had a slumber party as well, for all the girls in the youth, and some older..it was so much. We played twister, which is like my favorite game. Some of the boys tried to do something, but it didn't work. We are just to smart for them!

New Years was spent at the church. We had a service and rocked out till midnight. We ate, prayed, laughed. God hit good. Things are changing in me, in the church. God is moving in a different way. It feels so cool! Saturday, went to my sisters drank just a bit..The best part of the evening was when my sister put on her p.j.'s and i got to see her little belly..you can't really see it with normal clothes on, but you could with her p.j.'s..it was so great. I loved it!!

After the snow melted, rain set in. So we are living with mud and too much water. It's crazy cuz it's like 60 degrees. In january, that like hardly ever happens.

Anyway, I better get going.
Oh one more thing, sorry if this is confusing for anyone, *cough, cough* tim!!

First day of snow!!

2004-12-22T18:28:00.000-06:00

Ha Ha Ha Ha Ha!!!

You know this year has gone by so fast..It started out with the hopes of going to Toronto, speaking/singing at churches, wondering what the heck i was going to doing, working in hell!! hee hee..Then the school happened..I met all these amazing people. God did so much, worked out so many things, there are still many things that need to be worked out, i had to learn that the school was merely a stepping stone to get me through some of the real world stuff..that not all my problems were fixed, dang it...

Anyway, but sitting here, reading your comments and just thinking. I am really thankful this year..God has done so much, He has brought so many wonderful people into my life, people that I love so very much! Even the ones that have been in my life for several years, they are becoming even greater friends, and i love them so much!
God is just so cool!! I love Him so much!! Even on the days where i feel so far from Him, or anyone else..

So anyway, I am trying to make a point, however it is not working!

I just wanted to tell you all, that i love you so very much. I am truely blessed to have each of you in my life.
I pray that you all have a merry christmas, that is it is amazing and wonderful!!
Thank you, thank you for just being you, and allowing me to be me!
Dawna

I love....

2004-12-21T11:35:00.000-06:00

So today we, Cade, Stevee and I, were heading to my house.
When Cade enthusiastically says, "I love Boogies!!" It was rather interesting..
they have discovered picking their noses, and no matter what i tell they always seem to
do it..so yea..if ya all have any suggestions let me know!!

Deer suck..i hate them..

2004-12-18T17:32:00.000-06:00

Ohmygoodness!! I am in this house with my little sister and her friend..who i love but the both have their boyfriends here..geez, i feel like more of the responsible one of the group..that never happens..geez..but oh well..
This week has been interesting..Sunday and thursday at church..God did something really cool...The speaker, aka..my spiritual dad...pulled me up in front of the whole church and just did some cool things..and thursday, my pastor like brought my name up like 10 times..don't think i am saying this cuz i am getting a big head, but i have been feeling really not spiritual, not near God..i know some of you are like geez is this all that has been going on with her..but really it has, it's been a real battle keeping my relationship with God.. but when they did this, they weren't saying all the stuff that they good, they just like totally encouraged me..and it was really cool..then i got prayed for and dude, i manifested and i haven't done that since toronto..God is doing something..it seems..today, we had practice for our christmas thing tomorrow, and afterward i played the guitar..man, it was really good..like i just sat there and worshipped..i am getting pretty good at it..and God just comes and i love him so much!! I have been really happy for the last two days.

Last night, we had this little chin-ding at one of my friends house..it was so much fun!! I bought this ring at walmart for a dollar, it's like a strobe like ring..it was mezmerizing, i guess you just have to be there, but it was so much fun..i think i am going to get them and wear them in my hair for our our christmas thing..it should be fun..unless janie won't let me do it..than we will have to see...

I had a dream last night that i was in Toronto..it was weird..i don't know..we will see..
well, the movies are about to start and the pizza is about done..so i am going to go..I love you all!

Millions of thoughts and no time...

2004-12-08T18:10:00.000-06:00

Okay, I am listening to Pink, Man that girl..she rocks..I love music, with just the right beat, you can change any kind of mood..happy to sad, happy to happy, sad to happy, hard day at work? throw on some superchick and your set..it's all good!! ha!!

N*E* way, I am reading a book(yes that is right a book, something i haven't done for, well i don't know how long) but I borrowed it from a friend, forever and a day ago..and am just finally reading it..I want to share a few paragraphs with you all..The book is called Esther, A woman of Strength and Dignity. by Charles R. Swindoll

"When I come to this book that never mentions God, I see Him all the more profoundly and eloquently portrayed throughtout it. It's there in invisible ink. Just like life. I've never seen skywriting that says, "I'm here, chuck. You can count on me." I've never heard an audible voice in teh middle of the night reassuring me, "I'm here, My son." But by faith I see HIm and, inaudibly, I hear HIm on a regular basis, reading Him written in the events of my life-whether it be the crushing blows that drive me to my knees or the joyous triumphs taht send my heart winging. When I pause long enough to look back, I realize it is the unsearchable mind, the unfathomable will, the sovereign control, the irresistible providence of God at work, because He, though invisible, remains invincible."

A few sentences later....

"What might those looming gallow be? Some horrible pain? Some threat of illness or need for surgery? some emotional stress that is leading to waht appears to be you emotional demise? Some fractured relationship that you cannot repair or get beyond? Some sudden loss that leaves you gripped in grief? or worst of all, a spiritual vacuujm that threatens your very soul?
I have great news. Be still....deliberately pause and sicover that God is God. Stop reaching back into your own treasure of security. Stop trying to pull the strings yourself. Stop monipulating people and situations. Stop ignoring reality. STop all that! How?
Be quiet. The all-wise God, hid from your eyes, is at work. Be very still and, for a change, listen."

Are you still reading my blog?? hee hee! if you are good!! If not I still love you, even though you have not even made it this far!! hee hee!!

I don't know, it just struck a chord in me..a lot of it i needed to hear.. The book is really good, i have only made it to like chapter two, cuz i just started it yesterday, and only seem to read it at nap time, cuz you can't when the kids are running around..but yea.

Today was hard day, i wan't feeling good, and the kids were doing everything i told them not to do..So i put on Brian Johnson, Taste and See...and i called the kids, who thought they were in trouble..and i blasted the song, and we danced and ran around the house..it was really cool and after that the day turned around..God is so interesing and strange and wonderful..i love him!!

Did anyone else get there 3 month letter? I got mine today...It was interesting..Now i have to go..
oh yea, anyone who reads this before saturday dec 11, i am taking my ACT at 8 am..it's a test you have to take to get into college for anyone who doesn't know..but yea..it should be okay..but can ya all just pray..thanks!

I love ya all,

I think My computer is going to die..Poor thing!

2004-12-05T15:09:00.000-06:00

Wow!! How long as it been since I have written?? geez, not as long as Tim..but hey what can i say!!
All thanksgiving weekend I was sick which really kind of sucked, cuz i had plans, parties to attend and things to do, but i couldn't do it!
However being sick does have it's benifits, cuz sunday i didn't feel good, and I got two, not just one, but two massages, from two people..Man did that feel good!! I loved it!!

Now what do i say? Wednesday I walked into worship practice, only to be confronted with the fact that people were there to practice this christmas thing that we are doing...only to realize that I was suppose to be there, and i sat down, and as the songs were being sung, i realized that i don't like christmas songs at all..in fact the only thing i like about christmas is the Jesus part.. Don't ask cuz I really have no explanation, i just don't.

Ohmygosh the coolest thing happened the other day!! I was leaving work, after a long hard day there..I was flipping from one radio station to another to all of a sudden here the sweet vocals of Joey MacInyre(don't know how to spell his last name!) For those of you who don't know who that is..He was the high voice in the band, NKOTB!! hahaaha..if you don't know who that is, well they were like the first boy band in like the late '80s who i loved!! Yes, that's right, I was a New Kids On The Block fan!!! I still am!! i really like them.. Now you all can say what you want to say..but nothing will make me change my mind!!

I got to teach the youth thursday at church, which was really cool, cuz I taught for a little bit, then we put some music on a played some games, and just hung out..

friday, Chrissy, Carrie and I went t.p. ing... it was awesome, cuz the first house we did, we had to run into the ditch, and i forgetting about our recent amounts of rain slammed myself in the ditch, to quickly realize that there were water puddles, my body was wet and cold..as well as the t.p..but we t.p.ed anyway..it was fun..then one of the daughter's randomly opened the door for some reason and the next thing we hear is, "DAD!" then we took off running..it was so much fun..the next house we went too, there were like 10 cops have a convention around the corner, so we were kind of nervous but we did it anyway, we got like pink and purple streamers and wrapped it around his porch, cuz he thinks he's so cool, and well you would just have to know David to understand..In the middle of doing it, the cops left, i guess they ran out of donuts..so we were all trying to hide, but there was nowhere to hide..so we thought we were for sure busted..but he didn't get caught, but david knew it was us..by the time we got with all the houses it was close to one before i got home..we had bought 72 rolls and had about 12 left..we only did 3 houses..so i don't know if that is good or not..but it was just getting too cold outside..but it was so much fun..

My sisters, brother-in-law and niece watched movies last night..Van Helsing and A Cinderella Story..they were both pretty good..i have to say that in Van Helsing those were the best vampires i had ever seen and was rather impressed...

I have been looking at colleges to go too next fall..I think I may have found one..i looked at it before, yet nothing came from it..so i think i am going to contact the school and go check it out!! I think i may double major in Music and Youth Ministry, cuz I want to reach the kids so bad!! But we will see..God has a plan, and i want to be in it..

THe night before thanksgiving!!

2004-11-24T23:15:00.000-06:00

First of all, I have to say...

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!! To all you americans out there..I hope that it was awesome!!

Hmmm...well, this past week? Has been crazy, however good..It seemed like every chance i got to sit down, i had to get right back up and do something..but it was cool!

One thing i forgot to mention last time, was that after preaching on Sunday, i realized that my zipper was down..yea, not my finest moment..then i told my pastor, Ray, about it he began to tell me how often that had happened to him!! It was quite a bonding moment!! hee hee!! Friday and Saturday, Chrissy and I led worship at the same church that i spoke at.. The first night was kind of weird, cuz i assumed a few things, only they didn't have what i assumed they would..so it was kind of awkward, but good..Saturday was really good..we just had the guitar, chrissy played, then the three of us sang(chrissy, carrie and I) we just did it all accoustic!! It was awesome..the presence of God was there and it totally rocked!! The preacher asked us our name and we are like umm The Rainbow Chicks..we really don't have a name we just decided that we all were going to sing..Later we thought we should have called us The Band You About To Hear..hats off to Liz!

Sunday I sang in the worship team at church..man, the first service, was about normal, cuz it's not suppose to be wild or anything..however we don't really listen to that rule!!but the second service was awesome..we were dancing, Vicky and I, on the stage, and my wire kept coming out of my pocket(handless microphone, it always makes me feel like britney spears or something) but it was so much fun!! We sang This Is Life, man God showed up and did amazing things..we also had these people there, that were once in prison but got saved..man one of them could sing...and their testimonies were so cool!! God Rocks!! Afterward we hung out at the chinese place, Jon hopped in my car where he hooked up his new Ipod and started singing, He is so cute!! Rushed back to the church for a birthday party, hung out there forever, playing the guitar and talking..It was a good day!

Now I am waiting for my biscuits/rolls to get down so this way i won't have to get up too early tomorrow..only i didn't start them soon enough and it is now 11:11 pm, and it seems i will up for awhile, but it's all good..Marlyn Manson is on the late show, and i'm kind of intrigued!!

Anyway, I'm tired, and am ready for bed, so i think i am going to check my rolls, pray they are ready to go in the oven and then i can go to bed!!

I love you all, Goodnight!!

2004-11-14T17:40:00.000-06:00

This weekend has totally rocked!! Friday we all went and watched The Incredibles!! Which was at first boring, but quickly got amazing..i wish i was elastigirl..she rocked..only the theatre was like packed, i think they sold to many tickets or something..we had to sit on the stairs, which was really cool at first, but quickly our butts became numb, than other limbs as well!! It was great!! Afterwards we went to walmart, where Chrissy pushed me around the store, which was fun. 'Cept I think someone complained about it to a manager, cuz there were a few people that looked unhappy..but oh well, then we rolled down this hill by walmart..it rocked!!

This morning I went to a church, sang, and spoke..It was fun, cuz like when we first moved to Robinson it was the first church we started to go too..so it was pretty cool! I stood up there in my big baggy jeans and just talked about Jesus..It was really cool!! I love doing this kind of stuff!!

Now I have officially filled out my application for the worship school..so we will see how that goes..Still unsure if I am going or not. So yea, I love God!!

dancing dogs, flowers, and frizzy hair!

2004-11-11T22:05:00.000-06:00

So the other day I was watching T.V. and this dog commercial came on..at first it was all the same old stuff..then all of a sudden, this dog started to dance..it was so hilarious to me that i just couldn't stop laughing..why is this so funny! Just thinking about it makes me laugh..
Tuesday night, the CMA awards were on, something to do with country..and well i don't like country at all, howevery my parents are big fans..i guess..So this was like the event of the year..they recorded it..heaven help us! So they were watching it yesterday, and i was about to pull my hair out, when this one act came on..Now i am not sure what they were trying to do, but it was so wrong..It was suppose to be a country band, but they had this wanna be rock sound to it..it was horrible, you just can't do that, you can't put rock in with country..it just sounds gross...then to top it all off, they brought out this black guy, who was in cowboy boots, hat, tight pants, leather jacket and a sparkling superman shirt..he couldn't dance, the rap was okay, i guess, but i just kept looking at the band and wondering what in the heck were they thinking..anyway, i about peed my pants..
Lisa if you read this, don't say a word, i don't want to hear it!! Lisa is a fan of country, we had a little disagreement about this band last night..So yea...
Tomorrow we are going to watch The Incredibles...anyone seen it?? whatcha think?? i have loved this man, the big guy, since he first came out on nemo...i can't wait!! don't worry, adam is still my one and only!!
Today, i took the kids to Pizza hut, with my family..it wasn't such a good experiance..Sometimes i wonder why i want kids..they just stress you out...then yesterday we were walking in my woods or close to it, and they saw some flowers, more like weeds, but they picked them, and gave them to me...today before nap time, they were like hugging me and just being so cute...those moments make it all worth it..it's like maybe the times that you want to kill them out way the times where you just love them, but when those moments happen you forget about all the stuff that they did to make you crazy, and later on you remember the good ones more then bad ones..It just makes me feel warm and fuzzy..
Goodnight!

Sometimes the mystery can not be solved

2004-11-07T16:49:00.000-06:00

Dude, God is so cool!! Sometimes I wonder why, but He just is..It is so amazing!!

In the last 3 months my life as not been the greatest, coming home was like woah...and it was like someone had taken a rope and pulled on it right as i was getting ready to walk over it and tripped me up, knocking me off my feet..and i have been trying to get back up for some time..I have cried myself to sleep and hated waking up in the morning..it seemed like i could not get myself out of here, for whatever reason it was, i am not sure. Maybe i didn't want too..it seemed like all the stuff that i had learned at the school, i had thrown out the window without a second thought. I wanted to run back to the school, to toronto. It was my safe place. Only when i did go back it hit me that it wasn't ever going to be the same.

Now i am not telling you this for your pity or anything else..i am only telling you this to tell you what God has done and how He has done it.

This past week, we had a 27/7 prayer and fasting. Praise God for the rain cuz i didn't have to work at all last week..So at first i was going to blow off the fasting part..but then i realized that i really needed to do it...so i fasted sugar..for only like 3 days, ate one meal a day and drank a lot of water!! I did cheat one day, but only because Jon and i went out to dinner at this amazing italian restaurant and they brought out dessert and i had to have some, but other than that..i was good!!

God really showed up, the week before this, i was in the prayer room and just soaking and i could feel His arms wrap around me, and he gave me this vision with a baby. I am thinking my little sister's..it was so cute. Last week, i came to church and just read the bible. Like zephaniah, and all those ones that no one really reads, but you could see God's grace, and mercy in these books, and hope for the future and all that jazz...it was so amazing..I cried, repented, cried, prayed, and today, which is sunday, was one of the best days i have had in so long..i just worshipped at church, gave all that i had into it..cried out to God and then we had testimonies and i cried even more..It was so wonderful!! God like totally rocks my world..it's like hope was renewed and i found him..i wanted him so bad this past week, that i couldn't not look for him..It was so good..
The sun has begun to shine amongst the darken clouds..and I know that it can only get better..
How does he have such patience for us? How does He love us, even when we hide in a corner hoping no one will find you, he peeks His head around and says,"peek-a-boo!". He brushes you off, and says,"Are you ready? Lets go!!" I don't understand this mystery, but I love Him for it..He is so cool!!
I love Him so much!!
anyway, i just wanted to share that with you all!!

Sloppy Joe,

2004-10-30T02:19:00.000-05:00

Once upon a time, there was young lady, who drove this great looking car!
She loved her car, it took her everywhere. People would look at this beautiful car and just stand in awe..

then one night as she is pulling into her drive way. She see that her lovely dog is chasing something..which is normally okay, but they got rather close to her car..she was worried..and her fears increased when she realized it was a skunk rather than a harmless animal..

She pulls into the driveway, and all of a sudden she realizes that there is the horrifying smell...it is all over her car, in her car and on her as well.. her poor dog..he was going crazy trying to get the smell off of himself...i have touched my dog for three days..the smell as finally come out of my car..and life seems to be getting back to normal!

Tonight i went to my friend, Lisa's house..we watched Shark Tale, which was okay..not as impressive as shrek but it was good...then we went back to her house where we watched the best of Adam Sandler, SNL...I love this man..i want to be his wife!! He is so cute and ohmygoodness..i just want him..is that wrong?? I dont't know, I am not sure i even care..I like him!

Random thought of the moment!

2004-10-27T13:15:00.000-05:00

So the other day, I was washing my whites..
Just to make sure they stay extra white, i put bleach in the water. who doesn't?
Only whenever i brought up the bottle of bleach to put the lid on it,
bleach dripped out of the spout thingie and dropped on my cool sock!

At first it looked like nothing was going to happen. But ya all know how bleach works.
we know that it will turn anything that is not white, white..

so i stared at it and waited and waited, and guess what happened?

Yeppers,

Dude, before i knew it, it began to turn white!! It was the craziest thing..cuz it just kept going, i thought it was going to turn most of my sock white..but it didn't..which is cool..now i have this interesting white circle on my red glittery sock!!

For inquiring minds!

2004-10-24T18:28:00.000-05:00

Geez, how do you spell inquiring?? Is that right? I don't know..

Just to let everyone know, I live in a town with about 7,000 people.
There are cornfields surrounding the outer area of the town, and deer roam freely throughout this wonderful place. We recently got a movie theatre this feb., yes ladies and gents only about 9 months ago. before that we had to drive 45 min. to an hour to get to the nearest city with a movie theatre, mall and anything worth going to.

The most exciting thing that can happen around here, is 4 wheeling, mudding, going to walmart, and cruising the strip..about a 2 mile stretch from DQ to Mcdonalds, on the opposite ends of town...soon we will be able to have fun by going t.p. ing (throwing rolls of toilet paper up in peoples trees, to show how much we really love them) In our area, mine is the biggest town, we are the big city...with all the cool happenings..

So if i go to walmart a lot, that is the reason...It's the only place worth going too, without having to drive an hour depending on traffic and weather..I know it may seem like sheer laziness, however, time just does not allow me to drive that as often as i would like!!

So anyway, hope you all enjoyed, this addition of Dawna's life..
Now i am going to grocery store to buy some fruit.
Have a nice day!!

fighting the urge to run!

2004-10-23T21:10:00.000-05:00

Do you ever have those days where you just feel like doing nothing? Where laziness has crepted in and you just want to lay in bed or maybe just barely move. Where that was yesterday(friday) but it is rather hard when you have two little children, hanging on your every move!! Hee hee..yet, i love those kids like they were my own.

The highlight, was when Tim, called me. I miss him so much!! It was so cool to just laugh and talk about life. It was really good.

I had my girls group last night. It was really strange. We had our first short little bible study thing. Course only 2 girls were there. But i love them both very much. I think they thought that we were just going to goof around the whole time. I don't know. It was one of the first discouragements of the evening. The cool part was that we played hide and go seek in the basement of the church. I almost peed my pants so many times. but it was so much fun. oh yea, it was in the dark on top of it!! Which i sort of was scared at first, cuz i had been in here before and there were sounds coming from the other room, like someone was in here. It scared me. then we went to walmart, looked around for a bit, it was here that i learned that words have a major effect on you. Even though sometimes you can put a smile on your face and pretend that it didn't bother you. Than other times, it is exactly what you don't need to hear. I have been having issues with my weight. Something that i always struggle with, but it still bothers me, and for the last week or so, it has been a big problem. Last night, one of the girls kept saying these comments. It was like she was telling me that i was fat and if i kept going like i was, that i wouldn't be able to even walk around walmart. With out trouble. It wasn't just one time, it was many times. I know what you are thinking, I went to the school of ministry, i shouldn't have this problem!! hee hee...

Then today, we went with a group of us, to Terre Haute (the nearest big city in Indiana) to watch a movie. Raise your Voice (Hilary Duff) not really one i would really have liked to seen, i don't really like hilary duff..but i thought maybe...it did surprise me and i rather enjoyed it. We then went to the christian bookstore and mall. At the book store, we were looking at some t-shirts, and i found one that i liked, then another comment was made. It hasn't been the greatest couple of days...but there has been some good things.

God is faithful and I just need to remember who I am in Him, and that He loves me, even if i have a pudge!! or am not supermodel skinny!! Thank you Jesus

oh and i ran a red light and almost killed everyone in my car... so that was interesting..

These things are addicting

2004-10-21T18:57:00.000-05:00

Okay, so today i took the twins to walmart, it was so funny..they had to get stickers and it took like forever for them to pick them out, then everytime we would see something with spiderman or Nemo on it, the would yell out "SPIDERMAN" "NEMO" at the top of their lungs, causing everyone that was within the close hearing distance to turn around with the dirtiest looks you could imagine..

but it was hilarious in my book..

then i came home i saw my dad working on the yard, and dude, i love living in the country!! but he had this pick tracker with the digger thing on top..dude, i tried to talk him into letting me drive it, but he wouldn't let me..which was rather disappointing, but i got to rake up the dirt and that was fun, getting dirty and stuff..dude..i love it..

E.T. phone home

2004-10-20T19:48:00.000-05:00

Tonight we were suppose to have worship practice, but was cancelled for good reasons. However it got me thinking about how often i am in this building. Which i guess isn't really a bad thing, but it's just crazy.. Now you may be asking yourself well how often does she go to church. Well, folks it is not once or twice, or even three times, nope it is about every day. Sunday, monday i was here for like 3 hours printing out pictures, tuesday, wednesday, thursday, friday, depending on what's going on, probably saturday as well. now it is one thing if you work at the church, cuz that is somewhat understandable, but when i work for like 9 hours then purposely come here, instead of going home, or am home like 2 hours only to be here for church. there just seems to be something wrong with that..I don't know maybe it is me.

Tim, I just want you to know that persimmons are real, they grow on trees all around here..i can't even describe them to you, cuz they aren't like anything you have probably seen, and the taste is even more strange, but i love to eat them, just picked off the ground..umm..you can make cookies and all kinds of things with them..Picking them up for work, though is not as fun! you get to crawl around on your knees and then if you miss one, you squish it with your knee and it is just a big mess...but it's all good!

And for the one that asked about the apple cider, it was nice and warm, it was so great..otherwise i don't think i could have enjoyed it that much! Just thinking about it gives me warm fuzzies!! You canadians think that everything came from Canada, well, we will see about that!! oh i'm sorry did i just hurt your feelings?? HA HA HA HA!! You all just wish you were as cool as us americans!! The only thing you all have going for ya is that you have better side of Niagra Falls.. Is it wrong that i think of viagra whenever is say Niagra?? anyway, i'm just playing around with ya. You know i love ya, canadians..

well, gee, i think that this i my longest blog, so i'll be signing off now.

What a great date!!

2004-10-20T18:05:00.000-05:00

Ya know, if i had a hot air balloon and portable oven. I would ride in it every other night just to eat my pizza at 3,000 feet...

wouldn't it be romantic!!

can a hot air balloon even get that high?

I have fallen in Love!!

2004-10-18T15:32:00.000-05:00

So, i have finally been able to print out the many pictures from SoM from the cd's that i have gathered..which is crazy all in itself, but it's funny to go back through them and see all the good times that we have had..and tears well up in my eyes, cuz i miss you all so much!! well, only part of that is true. But it's fun! Friday, i had my girls group and we ended up watching a movie. It wasn't really boring, but there were moment where i wanted to poke my eyes out!! However we had a fun evening.

Saturday i went to my friends birthday party, oh my goodness. I fell head over heels for someone at the party! I don't know how it happened, but man when our tastes buds met, it love at first taste!! We had to go and be alone for awhile, away from everyone! I can't believe how wonderful this feels!! Hee hee.. His name is Apple Cider..oh wow!

okay so actually it was a drink, but man when i tasted it, it was heaven, it was so wonderful!

So here i am on yet another rainy monday afternoon, printing off pictures, and dreaming about my apple cider.

Now I will say farewell to you all! For my brain as gone off to never never land and I must be going!

By the way...

2004-10-18T13:35:00.000-05:00

The whole pizza and higher altitude thing, i was asking this question to my friends, and one of them pointed out how the people in colorado might actually cook their pizza's at a higher altitude, due to the mountain where they might actually be living on. So yea, that was fun..

Did you know....

2004-10-15T19:51:00.000-05:00

That on the back of the Digiorno Pizza, ya know the one that has the amazing crust for an oven pizza..it says that if you are cooking the pizza at a higher altitude, like over 3,000 feet, to cook it at 375 degrees.
Who cooks pizza at 3,000 feet?? I don't know.

The most exciting thing in the world!!

2004-10-15T00:19:00.000-05:00

Dude, i forgot to mention that my sister wasn't in trouble..sort of, it's really a long story, but i thought i better put that on there. Keep her reputation healthy!
The last two days, (wednesday and thursday) i have not baby sat, due to the rain..the people i babysit for the guy only works when the weather is nice, which i cool, but not so cool..since i sort of need all the money i can get right now. so yea, it was nice, considering that i was about to go insane i think. It's not so bad, watching twins, but somedays you just need a moment and then you realize you can't have that moment, cuz you can't really lock them in their closet, or anything like that. Today, i went to my church, and helped out with some stuff that needed to be done, then went home to pick up persimmons with my family. which you may not know what they are, but the are annoying. I like to pick them off of the ground and eat them, but for the most part to pick them up when it is cold and raining outside, just isn't the most exciting thing i would ever want to do. But yea, anyway, I better get going, need some sleep tonight, so i can get up and go to work in the morning!!

Scary noises leaving me afraid and trapped.

2004-10-14T00:06:00.000-05:00

All of my friends seems to be doing this, so I thought I would start one up!! Be cool like the rest of them!!
In the last week, I have come face to face with a deer, who's main goal in life seemed to be to try and run me down. Lucky for it, I put on the moves and avoided the darn thing.
Had to find my sister, due to an interesting phone call from the police, ate dinner at my good friend Jon's family thing, and taught at a small group. Only to finish up with today, where I have just finished worship practice and am now hearing strange noises in the basement, which almost makes me scared to leave this room but it is my only way out. So see I am having a bit of a problem, but as long as i continue to write, than there is no need to leave. Only I can't stay here all night long, i must go home sometime. Geez, what to do?